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US gymnasts tell AP sport rife with verbal, emotional abuse

2018-02-25 13:35 Last Updated At:13:35

They were little girls with dreams of Olympic gold when they started in gymnastics. Now they're women with lifelong injuries, suffocating anxiety and debilitating eating disorders.

They are the other victims of USA Gymnastics.

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HOLD FOR STORY - FILE - In this Sept. 12, 2015, file photo, Martha Karolyi, national team coordinator for USA Gymnastics, gives instructions to gymnasts after a training session at the Karolyi Ranch in Huntsville, Texas. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karoylis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/David J. Phillip, File)

They were little girls with dreams of Olympic gold when they started in gymnastics. Now they're women with lifelong injuries, suffocating anxiety and debilitating eating disorders.

FILE - In this Sept. 12, 2015, file photo, Martha Karolyi, national team coordinator for USA Gymnastics, watches over gymnasts during a training session at the Karolyi Ranch in Huntsville, Texas. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karolyis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/David J. Phillip, File)

The gymnasts agreed to speak to AP, some for the first time, after the recent courtroom revelations about USA Gymnastics' former team doctor, Larry Nassar, who recently was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment.

CORRECTS FROM CONVICTED TO SENTENCED - FILE - In this Nov. 22, 2017, file photo, Dr. Larry Nassar, 54, appears in court for a plea hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (AP Photo/Paul Sancya, File)

Young girls were virtually starved, constantly body shamed and forced to train with broken bones or other injuries, according to interviews and the lawsuit. Their meager diets and extreme training often delayed puberty, which some coaches believed was such a detriment that they ridiculed girls who started their menstrual cycles.

FILE - In this Jan. 23, 2018, file photo, Gymnast Emily Morales gives her victim impact statement during the sixth day of Larry Nassar's pleaded guilty hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (Dale G. Young/Detroit News via AP, File)

A congressional committee investigating the gymnastics scandal said in Feb. 8 letters to the Karolyis, USA Gymnastics and the U.S. Olympic Committee that they were all "at the center of many of these failures" that allowed Nassar's sexual abuse to persist for more than two decades.

CORRECTS FROM CONVICTED TO SENTENCED - FILE - In this Jan. 24, 2018, file photo, former gymnast Rachael Denhollander, left, is hugged by Kaylee Lorincz after giving her victim impact statement during the seventh day of Larry Nassar's sentencing hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (AP Photo/Carlos Osorio, File)

Manly cited the deposition in accusing the sport's governing body of lying to Congress.

FILE - In this July 23, 1996, file photo, Bela Karolyi, right, congratulates Dominique Moceanu, left, after the United States captured the gold medal in the women's team gymnastics competition at the Centennial Summer Olympic Games in Atlanta. United States team coach Martha Karolyi, center, looks on. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karoylis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/Amy Sancetta, File)

FILE - In this July 23, 1996, file photo, Bela Karolyi, right, congratulates Dominique Moceanu, left, after the United States captured the gold medal in the women's team gymnastics competition at the Centennial Summer Olympic Games in Atlanta. United States team coach Martha Karolyi, center, looks on. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karoylis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/Amy Sancetta, File)

FILE - In this Aug. 12, 1985, file photo, Olympic gymnastics coach Bela Karolyi, right, instructs Sara Tank on the balance beam at his Olympic training facility in north Houston. When Tank arrived at the ranch in 1985, she said she soon realized that the Bela Karolyi she had seen on television, who was "animated and acted like he loved kids," was "not the Bela that was in the gym." "We were treated like a business plan," said Sara Tank Ornelas, now living in Wichita, Kan. Ornelas said she suffered 13 broken bones while training at the ranch from age 11 to 15. (AP Photo/Richard J. Carson, File)

FILE - In this Aug. 12, 1985, file photo, Olympic gymnastics coach Bela Karolyi, right, instructs Sara Tank on the balance beam at his Olympic training facility in north Houston. When Tank arrived at the ranch in 1985, she said she soon realized that the Bela Karolyi she had seen on television, who was "animated and acted like he loved kids," was "not the Bela that was in the gym." "We were treated like a business plan," said Sara Tank Ornelas, now living in Wichita, Kan. Ornelas said she suffered 13 broken bones while training at the ranch from age 11 to 15. (AP Photo/Richard J. Carson, File)

CORRECTS TO NEARLY 250 WHO GAVE STATEMENTS NOT 160 - FILE - In this Oct. 17, 2010, file photo, Mattie Larson of the U.S. performs on the uneven bars during the women's qualifying session for the World Gymnastics Championships in Rotterdam, Netherlands. Larson, who was molested by Larry Nassar and was among the nearly 250 who gave victim impact statements during his sentencing, said the doctor cleared her one time to train at the Bela and Martha Karolyi complex in Texas on an ankle that turned out to be fractured. Larson, who began training at the Karolyi training facility when she was 10, said she feared even drinking water because of possible weight gain and took laxatives daily for six years. (AP Photo/Bas Czerwinski, File)

CORRECTS TO NEARLY 250 WHO GAVE STATEMENTS NOT 160 - FILE - In this Oct. 17, 2010, file photo, Mattie Larson of the U.S. performs on the uneven bars during the women's qualifying session for the World Gymnastics Championships in Rotterdam, Netherlands. Larson, who was molested by Larry Nassar and was among the nearly 250 who gave victim impact statements during his sentencing, said the doctor cleared her one time to train at the Bela and Martha Karolyi complex in Texas on an ankle that turned out to be fractured. Larson, who began training at the Karolyi training facility when she was 10, said she feared even drinking water because of possible weight gain and took laxatives daily for six years. (AP Photo/Bas Czerwinski, File)

FILE - In this July 18, 1976, file photo, Nadia Comaneci, of Romania, dismounts from the uneven parallel bars during a perfect "10" performance at the Summer Olympic Games in Montreal, Canada. Bela and Martha Karolyi, famous for training Comaneci, the first woman gymnast to win a perfect score, went on to help USA Gymnastics to win 41 Olympic medals, including 13 gold over three decades. Former U.S. gymnasts and coaches interviewed by The Associated Press have described a culture rife with verbal and emotional abuse. (AP Photo/Paul Vathis, File)

FILE - In this July 18, 1976, file photo, Nadia Comaneci, of Romania, dismounts from the uneven parallel bars during a perfect "10" performance at the Summer Olympic Games in Montreal, Canada. Bela and Martha Karolyi, famous for training Comaneci, the first woman gymnast to win a perfect score, went on to help USA Gymnastics to win 41 Olympic medals, including 13 gold over three decades. Former U.S. gymnasts and coaches interviewed by The Associated Press have described a culture rife with verbal and emotional abuse. (AP Photo/Paul Vathis, File)

Thirteen former U.S. gymnasts and three coaches interviewed by The Associated Press described a win-at-all-cost culture rife with verbal and emotional abuse in which girls were forced to train on broken bones and other injuries. That culture was tacitly endorsed by the sport's governing body and institutionalized by Bela and Martha Karolyi, the husband-and-wife duo who coached America's top female gymnasts for three decades.

HOLD FOR STORY - FILE - In this Sept. 12, 2015, file photo, Martha Karolyi, national team coordinator for USA Gymnastics, gives instructions to gymnasts after a training session at the Karolyi Ranch in Huntsville, Texas. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karoylis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/David J. Phillip, File)

HOLD FOR STORY - FILE - In this Sept. 12, 2015, file photo, Martha Karolyi, national team coordinator for USA Gymnastics, gives instructions to gymnasts after a training session at the Karolyi Ranch in Huntsville, Texas. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karoylis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/David J. Phillip, File)

The gymnasts agreed to speak to AP, some for the first time, after the recent courtroom revelations about USA Gymnastics' former team doctor, Larry Nassar, who recently was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment.

The Karolyis' oppressive style created a toxic environment in which a predator like Nassar was able to thrive, according to witness statements in Nassar's criminal case and a lawsuit against USA Gymnastics, the Karolyis and others. Girls were afraid to challenge authority, Nassar was able to prey on vulnerable girls and, at the same time, he didn't challenge the couple's harsh training methods.

"He was their little puppet," Jeanette Antolin, a former member of the U.S. national team who trained with the Karolyis, said. "He let us train on injuries. They got what they wanted. He got what he wanted."

FILE - In this Sept. 12, 2015, file photo, Martha Karolyi, national team coordinator for USA Gymnastics, watches over gymnasts during a training session at the Karolyi Ranch in Huntsville, Texas. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karolyis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/David J. Phillip, File)

FILE - In this Sept. 12, 2015, file photo, Martha Karolyi, national team coordinator for USA Gymnastics, watches over gymnasts during a training session at the Karolyi Ranch in Huntsville, Texas. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karolyis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/David J. Phillip, File)

Young girls were virtually starved, constantly body shamed and forced to train with broken bones or other injuries, according to interviews and the lawsuit. Their meager diets and extreme training often delayed puberty, which some coaches believed was such a detriment that they ridiculed girls who started their menstrual cycles.

USA Gymnastics declined to answer questions for this story, and the Karolyis didn't reply to requests for comment. The Karolyis' Houston attorney, Gary Jewell, said the Karolyis didn't abuse anyone.

Some female gymnasts in the U.S. were subjected to abusive training methods before the Karolyis defected from their native Romania in 1981. But other coaches and former gymnasts say the Karolyis' early successes — starting with Romania's Nadia Comaneci becoming the first woman gymnast awarded a perfect score in competition — validated the cutthroat attitudes that fostered widespread mistreatment of American athletes at the highest levels of women's gymnastics.

The Karolyis, who helped USA Gymnastics win 41 Olympic medals, including 13 gold over three decades, trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, known as "the ranch." They selected gymnasts for the national team and earned millions from USA Gymnastics.

CORRECTS FROM CONVICTED TO SENTENCED - FILE - In this Nov. 22, 2017, file photo, Dr. Larry Nassar, 54, appears in court for a plea hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (AP Photo/Paul Sancya, File)

CORRECTS FROM CONVICTED TO SENTENCED - FILE - In this Nov. 22, 2017, file photo, Dr. Larry Nassar, 54, appears in court for a plea hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (AP Photo/Paul Sancya, File)

A congressional committee investigating the gymnastics scandal said in Feb. 8 letters to the Karolyis, USA Gymnastics and the U.S. Olympic Committee that they were all "at the center of many of these failures" that allowed Nassar's sexual abuse to persist for more than two decades.

It's unclear what the Karolyis knew about Nassar's sexual abuse and whether they took any action to stop it.

Martha Karolyi, in a deposition given last year as part of the lawsuit against the Karolyis and numerous others, acknowledged that "in or around June 2015" she received a phone call from the then-head of the national gymnastics organization, Steve Penny, informing her that the organization had received a complaint that Nassar had "molested a national team gymnast at the ranch."

The deposition was included in a Feb. 14 letter to two U.S. senators from John Manly, an attorney representing Nassar victims in a lawsuit that seeks monetary damages and court oversight of USA Gymnastics.

FILE - In this Jan. 23, 2018, file photo, Gymnast Emily Morales gives her victim impact statement during the sixth day of Larry Nassar's pleaded guilty hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (Dale G. Young/Detroit News via AP, File)

FILE - In this Jan. 23, 2018, file photo, Gymnast Emily Morales gives her victim impact statement during the sixth day of Larry Nassar's pleaded guilty hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (Dale G. Young/Detroit News via AP, File)

Manly cited the deposition in accusing the sport's governing body of lying to Congress.

In a timeline submitted to a congressional committee investigating the scandal, the organization said it was told in mid-June of an athlete "uncomfortable" with Nassar's treatment, but that it was not until late July 2015 that it decided to notify law enforcement "with concerns of potential sexual misconduct."

Penny, the former USA Gymnastics chief, said in a statement that Martha Karolyi was mistaken about the timing of his call.

Texas has one of the strongest child abuse reporting laws in the nation, requiring anyone who has reason to believe abuse has occurred to immediately alert authorities. Failure to do so is a misdemeanor punishable by jail time and a fine.

In the deposition, Martha Karolyi said she did not discuss what she learned about Nassar with anyone but her husband, her lawyers and the USA Gymnastics official who called her.

Jewell, the Karolyis' attorney, said the couple didn't know about any sexual assault complaints involving Nassar until Martha Karolyi was contacted by a USA Gymnastics official in the summer of 2015.

CORRECTS FROM CONVICTED TO SENTENCED - FILE - In this Jan. 24, 2018, file photo, former gymnast Rachael Denhollander, left, is hugged by Kaylee Lorincz after giving her victim impact statement during the seventh day of Larry Nassar's sentencing hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (AP Photo/Carlos Osorio, File)

CORRECTS FROM CONVICTED TO SENTENCED - FILE - In this Jan. 24, 2018, file photo, former gymnast Rachael Denhollander, left, is hugged by Kaylee Lorincz after giving her victim impact statement during the seventh day of Larry Nassar's sentencing hearing in Lansing, Mich. Nassar was sentenced to decades in prison for sexually assaulting young athletes for years under the guise of medical treatment. (AP Photo/Carlos Osorio, File)

FILE - In this July 23, 1996, file photo, Bela Karolyi, right, congratulates Dominique Moceanu, left, after the United States captured the gold medal in the women's team gymnastics competition at the Centennial Summer Olympic Games in Atlanta. United States team coach Martha Karolyi, center, looks on. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karoylis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/Amy Sancetta, File)

FILE - In this July 23, 1996, file photo, Bela Karolyi, right, congratulates Dominique Moceanu, left, after the United States captured the gold medal in the women's team gymnastics competition at the Centennial Summer Olympic Games in Atlanta. United States team coach Martha Karolyi, center, looks on. Much of the widespread culture of abuse in USA Gymnastics, AP found, can be traced to the training methods of the Karoylis. The Romanian-born couple gradually assumed leadership of the U.S. women's gymnastics program after defecting to the United States in 1981. They trained hundreds of gymnasts at their complex in rural Huntsville, Texas, selected gymnasts for the national team, and earned millions from USA Gymnastics. (AP Photo/Amy Sancetta, File)

FILE - In this Aug. 12, 1985, file photo, Olympic gymnastics coach Bela Karolyi, right, instructs Sara Tank on the balance beam at his Olympic training facility in north Houston. When Tank arrived at the ranch in 1985, she said she soon realized that the Bela Karolyi she had seen on television, who was "animated and acted like he loved kids," was "not the Bela that was in the gym." "We were treated like a business plan," said Sara Tank Ornelas, now living in Wichita, Kan. Ornelas said she suffered 13 broken bones while training at the ranch from age 11 to 15. (AP Photo/Richard J. Carson, File)

FILE - In this Aug. 12, 1985, file photo, Olympic gymnastics coach Bela Karolyi, right, instructs Sara Tank on the balance beam at his Olympic training facility in north Houston. When Tank arrived at the ranch in 1985, she said she soon realized that the Bela Karolyi she had seen on television, who was "animated and acted like he loved kids," was "not the Bela that was in the gym." "We were treated like a business plan," said Sara Tank Ornelas, now living in Wichita, Kan. Ornelas said she suffered 13 broken bones while training at the ranch from age 11 to 15. (AP Photo/Richard J. Carson, File)

CORRECTS TO NEARLY 250 WHO GAVE STATEMENTS NOT 160 - FILE - In this Oct. 17, 2010, file photo, Mattie Larson of the U.S. performs on the uneven bars during the women's qualifying session for the World Gymnastics Championships in Rotterdam, Netherlands. Larson, who was molested by Larry Nassar and was among the nearly 250 who gave victim impact statements during his sentencing, said the doctor cleared her one time to train at the Bela and Martha Karolyi complex in Texas on an ankle that turned out to be fractured. Larson, who began training at the Karolyi training facility when she was 10, said she feared even drinking water because of possible weight gain and took laxatives daily for six years. (AP Photo/Bas Czerwinski, File)

CORRECTS TO NEARLY 250 WHO GAVE STATEMENTS NOT 160 - FILE - In this Oct. 17, 2010, file photo, Mattie Larson of the U.S. performs on the uneven bars during the women's qualifying session for the World Gymnastics Championships in Rotterdam, Netherlands. Larson, who was molested by Larry Nassar and was among the nearly 250 who gave victim impact statements during his sentencing, said the doctor cleared her one time to train at the Bela and Martha Karolyi complex in Texas on an ankle that turned out to be fractured. Larson, who began training at the Karolyi training facility when she was 10, said she feared even drinking water because of possible weight gain and took laxatives daily for six years. (AP Photo/Bas Czerwinski, File)

FILE - In this July 18, 1976, file photo, Nadia Comaneci, of Romania, dismounts from the uneven parallel bars during a perfect "10" performance at the Summer Olympic Games in Montreal, Canada. Bela and Martha Karolyi, famous for training Comaneci, the first woman gymnast to win a perfect score, went on to help USA Gymnastics to win 41 Olympic medals, including 13 gold over three decades. Former U.S. gymnasts and coaches interviewed by The Associated Press have described a culture rife with verbal and emotional abuse. (AP Photo/Paul Vathis, File)

FILE - In this July 18, 1976, file photo, Nadia Comaneci, of Romania, dismounts from the uneven parallel bars during a perfect "10" performance at the Summer Olympic Games in Montreal, Canada. Bela and Martha Karolyi, famous for training Comaneci, the first woman gymnast to win a perfect score, went on to help USA Gymnastics to win 41 Olympic medals, including 13 gold over three decades. Former U.S. gymnasts and coaches interviewed by The Associated Press have described a culture rife with verbal and emotional abuse. (AP Photo/Paul Vathis, File)

BRENTWOOD, N.H. (AP) — The man who blew the lid off decades of abuse allegations at New Hampshire’s youth detention center continued testifying at his civil trial Thursday, describing being treated for gonorrhea after being raped at age 15.

But the real turning point, he said, was the first of many assaults by a man he had grown to love as father figure.

In the seven years since David Meehan went to police, the state has set up a $100 million fund for former residents of the Sununu Youth Services Center in Manchester and brought criminal charges against 11 former state workers, including four accused of abusing Meehan.

But facing more than 1,100 lawsuits from former residents, the state also argues it should not be held liable for the actions of what it calls “rogue” employees.

That unusual dynamic began playing out as Meehan’s lawsuit –- the first to be filed — went to trial last week. On the witness stand for a second day Thursday, Meehan acknowledged lying on intake paperwork about having sexual experience before arriving at the facility in 1995 at age 14.

“Do you ever really just need to feel tough in any way that you can?” he asked jurors. “It was just another form of protection for my own survival.”

In reality, his first sexual experience came when a youth center staffer violently raped him under the guise of performing a strip search, he said. He later was quarantined in the infirmary for gonorrhea, he said.

“You lost your virginity to Frank Davis?” asked attorney Rus Rilee, referring to a former staffer who has pleaded not guilty to sexual assault charges.

“I’m not going to accept that in my life anymore, so no,” Meehan said. “I was raped as a little boy by somebody who should not have been in a position to have been allowed to do that.”

Over the following months, Meehan said his assigned youth counselor, Jeffrey Buskey, began grooming him, giving him soda and snacks and arranging for him to play basketball with a local high school team.

“At that point, I have a father figure. I have a man in my life I felt a relationship with,” said Meehan, wiping away tears after his lawyer asked him if Buskey, who also has pleaded not guilty, treated him like a son.

“How I imagined I could be treated, yeah,” he said. “Better than my own dad.”

But that changed in the fall of 1997, when Buskey forced him to call his girlfriend and break up with her and then forced him to perform a sexual act, Meehan said.

“I am angry sitting here trying to talk about it and trying to control these emotions," he said. "But that’s when it starts, OK? That’s when it starts.”

Within days, other staffers also began abusing him, said Meehan, whose lawsuit alleges he was raped hundreds of times over three years. He said Buskey told him he was “his,” but if others wanted something, he should go along.

“It went from being somebody I trusted, that I thought was not just there to help me, but somebody I thought cared for me, to hurt,” he said.

The youth center, which once housed upward of 100 children but now typically serves fewer than a dozen, is named for former Gov. John H. Sununu, father of current Gov. Chris Sununu. In recent years, lawmakers have approved closing the facility and replacing it with a much smaller building in a new location.

The trial ended early for the day after Meehan broke down describing an incident in which he said Buskey forced a girl to perform a sex act to “teach” Meehan what to do.

“This is the only the beginning, and I’m doing everything I can right now to try to hold myself together because I know where this is going. I don’t want to keep having to say it out loud,” said Meehan, adding that he often struggles to feel safe.

“I’m forced to try to hold myself together somehow and show as a man everything these people did to this little boy,” he said. “I’m constantly paying for what they did.”

Youth Development Center plaintiff David Meehan testifies in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Youth Development Center plaintiff David Meehan testifies in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Youth Development Center plaintiff David Meehan walks out of the courtroom during a break in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Youth Development Center plaintiff David Meehan walks out of the courtroom during a break in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Plaintiff David Meehan listens to testimony of Michael Gilpatrick, a former youth detention center resident, during a civil trial seeking to hold the state accountable for alleged abuse at the Sununu Youth Services Center, formerly called the Youth Development Center, Wednesday, April 17, 2024, at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. On the screen is so called "hit squad" members including Bradley Asbury, clockwise from to left, James Woodlock, Stephen Murphy and Jeffrey Buskey. All four are charged with sexual assault or being an accomplice to the assault against Gilpatrick. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP)

Plaintiff David Meehan listens to testimony of Michael Gilpatrick, a former youth detention center resident, during a civil trial seeking to hold the state accountable for alleged abuse at the Sununu Youth Services Center, formerly called the Youth Development Center, Wednesday, April 17, 2024, at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. On the screen is so called "hit squad" members including Bradley Asbury, clockwise from to left, James Woodlock, Stephen Murphy and Jeffrey Buskey. All four are charged with sexual assault or being an accomplice to the assault against Gilpatrick. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP)

Youth Development Center. plaintiff David Meehan testifies as his intake photo, when he was 14 is displayed during his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Youth Development Center. plaintiff David Meehan testifies as his intake photo, when he was 14 is displayed during his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Attorney Rus Rilee, left, comforts his client, David Meehan, before Meehan took the stand in his civil trial against the Youth Development Center in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Attorney Rus Rilee, left, comforts his client, David Meehan, before Meehan took the stand in his civil trial against the Youth Development Center in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Youth Development Center plaintiff David Meehan gets sworn in before giving testimony in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

Youth Development Center plaintiff David Meehan gets sworn in before giving testimony in his civil trial at Rockingham County Superior Court in Brentwood, N.H. on Wednesday, April 17, 2024. (David Lane/Union Leader via AP, Pool)

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