One year after fleeing from Gaza to Egypt, CGTN's Palestinian correspondent Noor Harazeen carries the weight of survivor's guilt, watching her homeland's destruction from afar while clinging to a pot of sage, the scent of home.
Over 100,000 displaced Gazans share her torment, grateful for safety but haunted by thoughts of families still under bombardment.
"It has been a year now since I stayed in Egypt after leaving Gaza. Life is not easy being away from your homeland and your family and your loved ones. I'm living here while my extended family in Gaza and lots and lots of my friends and fellow colleagues and journalists are still in Gaza suffering, starving, being subjected to the continuous Israeli attacks, so it is not an easy thing for me," said Harazeen.
She said though the family is living in peace now, they are hoping that the Rafah border could reopen soon and they can resume their lives in Gaza.
"But this is the fact of the life that I'm living now and unfortunately I cannot move on. I'm one of these people that would face a very hard time to move on a hardship that she faces and I'm not alone. I mean there's more than 100,000 Gazans who evacuated Gaza to Egypt during the Israeli genocide on Gaza and I do believe that we are all sharing the same thing. We are very thankful that we are living a better life looking at everything that we are having here in Egypt, but at the same time, our only goal now is for the Rafah border to open and for us to go back to Gaza," said Harazeen.
Enjoying the time being with her children in a small garden in her house offers Harazeen a break from the concerns, she said.
"This little garden, it gives me a relief, you know, sometimes it keeps me busy. Following all of the news about Gaza, like my day, like when I wake up, when I open my eyes in the morning until I go to sleep and my whole brain is just thinking about Gaza and my eyes are only watching the news of Gaza even on TV or social media. My heart, my soul is there thinking of Gaza, so I thought that I should keep myself maybe a little bit busy.
In the garden Harazeen has a pot of sage which brings her some solace.
"This is called Meramie, in English it's a sage. I know it's present in other cultures but it's very famous in the Gazan culture, like I grew up drinking this. It smells so good, this so much reminds me of Gaza," she said.
Displaced Gazan journalist in Egypt shares survivor's guilt, hope for return
